blargh

I feel like a bad friend and a bad person.  I don't know how to fix myself, and I feel bad about that... kind of hate myself for it.  I also feel pretty stupid and lazy.  This "loving yourself" thing and not blaming yourself all the time is so hard.  I feel like a mess.  I don't know.  It's also weird and hard because yesterday was a pretty decent day mood wise and this morning had been alright.  But now I feel like crap.  It's stupid and frustrating.