the most dedicated library volunteer EVER

i'm about to head out into severe wind, some chill, and light rain (the harshest of winter weather where i live lol)  to walk to the library.  gluh, i deserve a medal for this.  though tbh i'm mostly going because i have a dvd due, and i can't afford to pay the late fees lol.  but honestly!! i'm still going, and i'm a great volunteer.

i have more feelings and i apologize in advance

lately i've felt so disconnected from everyone... so unwanted.  i try not to take certain things personally, because intellectually i'm sure they're not personal, but... it's hard to understand that on an emotional level.  if something hurts, my kneejerk reaction isn't to analyze why it hurts and try to fix that, but to just be sad that i have to be hurt.  and that's kind of pathetic, i don't want to be that way... yet i'm just not... capable of more.  i don't know how to be better than i am.  i don't know how not to care how people treat me.

thank

I had a nice, lowkey Thanksgiving at home.  It was actually a decent day.  I missed some of the people I couldn't see today (relatives that passed away, live far away, or just... for life reasons) but overall, it was a good day.  Not perfect, but nice... and I'll take it.

nano hell (part whatever)

We've made it to the halfway point in NaNo.  I've lost track of my story, written other things in the same document and counted those words, and just plain wished for death, lol.  So everything is right on schedule.

Good Books

Continuing to keep track of what I'm reading by making these lists.  It's easier and helpful to me.  :)  Idk if anyone is reading this blog, but if you want me to give my thoughts or opinions on any of these titles, go ahead and leave a comment and I'll do it when I have a chance!

They Drew as They Pleased: The Hidden Art of Disney's Golden Age by Didier Ghez
The Art and Flair of Mary Blair by John Canemaker

Dreams in the Golden Country: The Diary of Zipporah Feldman, a Jewish Immigrant Girl by Kathryn Lasky

Voyage on the Great Titanic: The Diary of Margaret Ann Brady by Ellen Emerson White

The Unicorn Treasury by Bruce Coville

El Deafo by Cece Bell 

Public School Superhero by James Patterson

My Little Pony: Under the Sparkling Sea and My Little Pony: The Dragons on Dazzle Island by Mary Jane Begin

My Little Pony: Glory, the Magic Unicorn

My Little Pony: Seaponies Make a Big Splash! by Bonnie Ventura 

The Art of My Little Pony: The Movie 

Rapunzel's Amazing Hair by Kiki Thorpe

Jack and the Beanstalk and the French Fries by Mark Teague

The Wizard of Oz: The Official 75th Anniversary Companion by William Stillman and Jay Scarfone 

The Case of the Ruby Slippers (A First Kids Mystery) by Martha Freeman 

Room on the Broom by Julia Donaldson 

On Halloween Night by Ferida Wolff and Dolores Kozielski

It Hardly Seems Like Halloween by David S. Rose

No Such Thing by Ella Bailey 

Seeking a Witch by Angela DiTerlizzi

Cat in the Hat Knows a Lot about That: Halloween Fun for Everyone by Tish Rabe

Patty's Pumpkin Patch and Zip! Zoom! On a Broom by Teri Sloat 

The Widow's Broom by Chris Van Allsburg

The Witch who was Afraid of Witches by Alice Low 

The Hallo-Wiener by Dav Pilkey 

Captain Underpants 11 and 12 by Dav Pilkey

Super Diaper Baby 1 and 2 by Dav Pilkey

Dog Man: A Tale of Two Kittens by Dav Pilkey   

Uni the Unicorn and the Dream Come True by Amy Krause Rosenthal

John Gilbert: The Last of the Silent Film Stars by Eve Golden

Walt Disney's Uncle Scrooge: The Seven Cities of Gold and Donald Duck: The Old Castle Secret by Carl Barks

Walt Disney Comics and Stories 75th Anniversary Special 

Walt Disney Comics and Stories Magic Kingdom Collection 

Festival of Bones/ El Festival de las Calaveras: The Little Bitty Book for the Day of the Dead by Luis San Vincente 

Goosebumps Creepy Creatures graphic novel 

Goosebumps Be Careful What You Wish For, Night of the Living Dummy 1 and 2 by R.L. Stine

Walt Disney's Classic Storybook (third edition)

A Series of Unfortunate Events The Bad Beginning, The Reptile Room, The Wide Window, and The Miserable Mill by Lemony Snicket  

Where the Wild Things Are by Maurice Sendak 

Baby-Sitters Club Mysteries Mallory and the Ghost Cat (#3), Dawn and the Halloween Mystery (#17) and Stacey and the Haunted Masquerade (#22) by Ann M. Martin 

Dawn and the Impossible Three (graphic novel) by Gale Galligan and Ann M.Martin

The Mask of Zorro by Frank Lauria 

Zorro Unmasked: The Unofficial History by Sandra Curtis

Wonder Woman Rebirth Vol. 3

Spider-Gwen Vol. 0 and Vol. 1 

The Princess in Black and the Mysterious Playdate by Shannon and Dean Hale

The Josefina Story Quilt by Eleanor Coerr

Sleeping Ugly by Jane Yolen 

The Library by Sarah Stewart 

Disney Nursery Rhymes

Nancy Drew Diaries (Graphic Novel) #2 (The Haunted Dollhouse/The Girl Who Wasn't There) by Stefan Petrucha 

The Day The Crayons Quit by Drew Daywalt 

Magic Tree House: Stallion by Starlight by Mary Pope Osborne 

The Lonely Doll by Dare Wright 

Gryphons Aren't So Great by James Strum, Alexis Frederick-Frost, and Andrew Arnold 

The Little Mouse, the Red Ripe Strawberry, and the Big Hungry Bear by Don and Audrey Wood 

Malala's Magic Pencil by Malala Yousafzai 

The Legend of Sleepy Hollow by Washington Irving, adapted and illustrated by Robert Van Nutt 

The Doll in the Window by Pamela Bianco 

Mummy (Eyewitness Book) by James Putnam

The Frog and Toad Treasury and Days with Frog and Toad by Arnold Lobel