Today my mood has been weird. I used to describe these moods as a "rubber ball" mood -- it bounces up, quite high, and goes down as low as it possibly can. I mean, I guess the real word to use there is "unstable," but that doesn't sound as nice, does it?
Like earlier... I was pretty low. Some weird sad/mad combo that I couldn't quite describe. Then I got a little better (and I wrote! I was so pleased! I still am pleased about that, tbh). But right now I'm pretty low again. Maybe not as bad as I was earlier... but noticeably low. I don't know.
I just kinda want my birthday to be over. And by "kinda," I mean I wish it wasn't happening now or ever, but since we can't make it skip from the 14th to the 16th, I'll just be glad when it's done and I don't have to think about how a) no one cares (to the point that even I don't care) and b) I won't get what I want or to do what I want.
But hell. I shouldn't focus on that. A good thing happened. I wrote for the first time in like two weeks... and I'm pretty sure it's not even terrible. So huzzah!
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