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Feeling everything just slip away from me.  Disappointing people, disappointing myself.  I'm not enough.  Not good enough, smart enough, or warm enough to be loved enough to feel like anyone means it.  I'm so tired of this... of always feeling like this.  I don't want to be and feel alone anymore, yet here I am.  Everything feels hopeless.  Just whatever.  I feel so much and I don't have the fucking words to express any of it.  I'm sad.