Hm

I just started my September book yesterday.  There are a lot of life reasons for that (been busy, depressed, and stretched thin because of having a lot of other shit to do), but I'm still not happy about it... especially since I was looking so forward to this book.  I may not finish it before the month is up. :(  I'm gonna try though!

since I last posted...

A few things have happened.

• I finished editing two books for my friend
• My friend published (!) said books
• I may have some more editing work coming my way
• I got a Polly Pocket castle
• Oh, I guess I should have said this first but I decided to collect Polly Pocket lol
• Hung out with some friends
• Celebrated Mabon (aka Pagan Thanksgiving lol)
• Got really depressed, got better, rinse, repeat
• Started playing The Sims Freeplay and it is a blackhole of free time lol

you know that feeling when..........

...you're tired for no reason (or, you know, because of the untreated depression lol) and you have stuff to do, but you're tired and also struggling with executive dysfunction, so those things seem insurmountable, but then you feel guilty for not doing them because you're unemployed and have no children so what right do you even have to ever be tired?  It sounds so stupid, so very very stupid.  I'm such a bad, lazy, worthless person.  And also I've been trying hard to can the negative self talk and believe it or not I've gotten better, lol.  It's just really hard not to think negative things when you feel negative things.  It's shit honestly.