sigh

i hate that nothing about life is as it's advertised.  nothing about life is really all that good.  the saying "life's too short" is a fucking lie, i'm not even 30 (yet, not until august) and already my life has spanned multiple centuries and been excruciating and seemingly endless.  no one cares about you as much as you care about them.  no one really cares how you are when they ask, no one picks up on small clues that you want to change the subject, your closest friends laugh at you for stuff that isn't a fucking joke.  life is just plain awful sometimes and i feel so fatigued by it.  nothing is good anymore. maybe it never was.