a lot of the times i feel like no one listens to me.  no one pays enough attention to care.  people don't... take the time to know jack shit about me or my life, besides the extremely superficial.  and the more that happens, the more i feel like i need to put up walls; if they're going to be outside i'm going to be the one to keep them out there... feels less like rejection that way.  but i still end up alone and it still sucks.