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Sometimes in life you cling to whatever little bit of happiness you can find.  Sometimes the happiness is purely superficial, and you feel bad about it, but you're so desperate to feel something that's good.  But then the thing goes away, and you're left with nothing again and it gets worse and worse and you feel worse and worse (even though you already felt pretty bad) and there's nothing to be happy about so you don't want to go on.

I don't get that thing anymore.  I don't want to go on.