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I'm weak, so weak.  There's things I'm not supposed to be doing but I am and things I'm supposed to be doing but I'm not.  I don't know how to cope, I don't know how to direct myself.  And I don't know how to focus.  God, what a fuck up.

Grrrrrrrr

Okay.  I'm honestly trying to be more positive.  It's not fucking working though.  I suck.