Dreams

I had this dream last night about my grandpa.  I really miss him a lot.  In the dream, it was just so normal.  He was here, and he was working on fixing the rickety porch.  I was there, and I was holding a light for him.  It was one of those dreams where it feels really real so I woke up and forgot for a split second that it wasn't.

I don't know.  Life was just better before, when he was here.

People tell me he would be proud of me, but really?  I mean what is there to be proud of?  If anything, I'd be breaking his heart... he always thought I had so much potential, and if I ever did I'm just wasting it.  What could be more disappointing than that?

And then I couldn't really make it out of bed.  It was one of those mornings were it was so hard.  But eventually I did, and then the morning started off shitty and stayed shitty for a while.  It did get better though... the day was pretty decent for the most part.  Right now though I have this massive headache for some reason and everything is pissing me way the fuck off.

Also, since I've last written, I've hardcore fallen in love with My Little Pony.