cool story ideas

• au where i'm happy
• au where i have a will to live
• au where i have a support system
• au where i didn't feel the need to post shit like this lol i hate it too

“it gets better” they say, emphatically and cheerfully.  the uwu is evident in their voice.  i survey my life, which has steadily gone down hill for the last decade at least, force a smile and say, “thank you.”  it’s what they want to hear, it’s how i can end the conversation. 

i dont feel strong enough to keep going

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Sometimes I just want a way to get away from my feelings, even just for a while.  But it's difficult... I don't think there is such a way.  No magic "healthy coping mechanism" for me.  I think... I think I'm a lost cause.  I may never get better, so my choices are either learn to accept that it's always going to be like this, or end it so "always" never happens.  But I'm too weak for the former and too much of a coward for the latter.  This is why I feel like a lost cause.