NaNo Cravings

This blog post is just going to be a list of the different foods and drinks I remember craving during NaNoWriMo (thus far... I've still got a few days and few thousand words to go).

• Blondies
• Doritos
• Street tacos
• Oreos
• Spaghetti with turkey meatballs
• Onion rings
• Tequila
• French fries
• Nachos
• Chorizo
• Mozzarella sticks

NaNo Hell

So I'm writing NaNo, as I do.  It's really a lot.  Really fucking extra.  What happens is that I write a lot because I have to and still feel like I'm not doing enough.  I complain about how much work it is, and then those around me guilt me for not taking it on the chin -- after all, I did sign up for it.  The experience overall does help one grow as a writer.  It's valuable and sometimes a very good project comes out of it... or at least the first draft for something that could become good.  However, it's still hell.  It's still a lot of work and a lot mental energy gets expended.  And I'll complain about it.  I'm sure I'm annoying... but there we are.  That's what I do.

Is it just me or is it harder to talk to people when you're really lonely?  i just like... I don't know... I wish I had more friends and people who really, really wanted to talk to me and be with me, but I suck at talking to people so I can't make friends.

God, all I do is whine.  I'm really sorry if you are for some reason reading this blog.

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Sometimes in life you cling to whatever little bit of happiness you can find.  Sometimes the happiness is purely superficial, and you feel bad about it, but you're so desperate to feel something that's good.  But then the thing goes away, and you're left with nothing again and it gets worse and worse and you feel worse and worse (even though you already felt pretty bad) and there's nothing to be happy about so you don't want to go on.

I don't get that thing anymore.  I don't want to go on.