I haven't been very happy lately. As a matter of fact, I've been downright unhappy for reasons I'm not fully aware of. I know, I know... I do try to be cheerful. Often I try to the point of hiding all my real feelings, and that isn't good. But lately, I haven't been hiding it very well.
I just feel completely blah. I guess something good is coming of this... I've been in a lifelong battle with insomnia, but I've been sleeping pretty okay the last couple of nights. A lot of the times I don't want to get out of bed though. Many days I can't remember what the point is.
I'm getting old... life is getting more difficult and trying. I know. I sound like a broken record. The kind with long bangs in front of it's face, thick black eyeliner, and skinny jeans (all of which I love *sigh*).
I can't remember the last time I was happy about something that wasn't completely material.
See, there was a long period of my life in which I was next to never happy. It was sad and difficult, and I couldn't put in to words what I was feeling or what was wrong. And it seemed like no one cared. I'm kinda negative like that though... I always feel like no one cares. I know that is most likely not the case, but it still feels that way sometimes. But the good thing is that the difference between me before and me now is that when I do get to feeling this way, I realize it's rather irrational. When I was that moody 17 year old, I wouldn't have.
iWant of the day: Essential Ellowyne Too, Redhead and this outfit for her to wear.
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